Free Advice: I Advise You Not To Listen To Me

Just a shot in the dark…

that you just might, be the one ive been looking for my whole life.

:3

Today seriously just sucks.

Im flat broke, i have no phone, i apparently have to deal with insensitive dicks on a daily basis, the stupid water heater broke so i took an ice fucking cold shower, i get paid practically fucking nothing…

and while all of that seems like nothing, im so done. im done being broke, im done fighting with people, im done with this stupid fucking recession, im just done with all of it.

This is going to sound stupid, but when i met Brandon and everything in my life suddenly seemed perfect, i thought I’d never cry again…and now im crying, again.

It seems to me some of the most undeserving people in the world just get handed shit on a daily basis. Their mommys and daddys buy them clothes and cars and when they break their phones, they get new ones just like that, and the new phone is usually something fancy like an iphone.

ive never had an iphone. and i guess up until now i convinced myself that i didn’t want one, but to be honest, id love it if just once someone would hand me an iphone or some other cool product everyone has and say ‘hey, this is for you, good job.’

Im currently saving up for a car, and at this rate it will take me 16 years to afford a used car. And yet despite how hard i work, no one is giving me a mustang or some other fancy car. At this rate, id accept a golf cart. Someone show mercy on me and give me a golf cart, so i can drive myself to my shitty part time job everyday and continue working towards nothing in order to recieve nothing so i can continue feeling nothing.

What the fuck is the point?

i work my ass off on a daily basis and get nothing in return.

and i never thought id say this, but i miss school, i want to go back to school, so so so bad. but i cant. the supposed ‘accessible school system’ the united states offers is bullshit. Being educated is apparently no longer free.

Ive lost my motivation to bitch. Im so miserable, i dont even want to bitch. I guess that says alot.

Today is just one of those days i guess.

I didn’t see this coming.

I’ve been so ‘blah’ for so long, like nothing really made me happy and I was irritable and just not really pleasant to be around. And then I met this guy. And I’ve liked him for a while but didn’t really think too much of it, guess I kinda just told myself it wouldn’t happen. But it did. And I can honestly say I’ve never been happier. Its spread into other aspects of my life too. I’m happier at work, and with my friends. I spend more time sober, which if you know me, is quite an acheivement. There’s still a part of me that thinks I’m going to screw it up somehow. I don’t want to screw it up. And then there’s the part of me that expects him to be a complete jerk, but he isn’t. As silly as it sounds, mainly because this has been going on for like not even a week, if I screw this up, that may just be it for me. The final straw. I don’t want to be unhappy again.

On a more light hearted note, I had the most amazing weekend with my friends. I don’t know what id do without them. :3

I found a very funny piece of mail today from Mr. Tire. Inspiring me to write this little gem.

List of possible excuses I could use to never have to go back to my stupid job.

I’m sorry, I can’t come in to work today because:

1. I lost track of time.

2. I was doing yoga and I got stuck.

3. I overslept.

4. I traded my car in for a camel.

5. There’s a disturbance in the force.

6. I’ve come down with a really horrible case of something or other.

7. Aliens abducted me.

8. I just don’t feel like it.

9. Its too hot.

10. Its too cold.

11. There are wild hungry bears running down my street.

12. That man on television told me to stay tuned.

13. I’m going to the Missing Persons Bureau to see if anyone is looking for me.

14. My psychic warned me not to leave the house today.

15. I changed the lock on my door and now I can’t get out.

16. I got stuck in the blood pressure machine.

17. My uncle escaped again.

18. I’m too busy surfing the net.

19. The sun is in my eyes.

20. There’s a full moon.

21. The dog ate my homework.

22. I’ve been arrested for heckling at the ballet.

23. I’m trying to cut back.

24. I’m having all of my plants neutered.

25. I have to study for a blood test.

26. I’m allergic to oil.

27. I have a phobia of chicken.

28. I don’t like you.

29. My internet connection is down.

30. I’d rather smoke a bowl.

If only it were that easy.

I cant think of a title.

Everything in the Chick-Fil-A kitchen is fucking hobbit sized. I now work in the back, making all the yum-yums but i hit my head on shelves and shit like five times a day and i have to hunch over to wash the dishes and make all the shit. BECAUSE EVERYTHING IS DESIGNED FOR A FUCKING HOBBIT!

And its nothing against hobbits, but we don’t currently have any hobbits employed, which makes me question why EVERYTHING MUST BE SO SMALL!

Since its been a while since ive actually blogged anything substantial, lets talk about me. :3

This month my life sucks because:

1. I failed my drivers test and now cant take it again until April.

2. The guy i was absolutely head over heels for rejected me. That hurt. But hes still wonderful and one of my best friends.

3. I only have like…a handful of friends left, but i dont necessarily think thats bad. I have e’erybody i need.

4. My ride just showed up…to be continued.